Have you ever wondered why so many famous pastors were extremely horrible people before they came to Christ? I mean pastors have the best testimonies, so often they were the drug dealers, the murderers, the rapists, the haters, the abused. Have you ever thought your testimony is not that great? I mean I have been trying to follow Christ since I was born, there was never a rapid conversion or miraculous providential escape.
Luke 7:40-50 Jesus told Simon a story about two men who were in debt. One owed five hundred denarius and the other fifty; Jesus forgave both of them. Jesus asked Simon who he thought would love Jesus more and Simon answered correctly, the one who owed more. Thus what does this say about our walks with Christ on totally different roads? What does this mean for the sinner who has been there done that, done everything wrong, and still what does this mean for the “baby Christian” who has been striving to follow Christ since birth.
I understand what this passage means to the murderer, abused, rapist, spiritualist, the SINNER who feels no hope- there is hope! No matter what you have done or how many times you have been down and stupid, God is calling you. He wants you passionately and He has a special kind of love that He wants to give you as He begins to heal your heart. You the total sinner can love God so much, just because of what He has rescued you from. You also have a powerful testimony that God wants to use for His glory. Be bold enough and secure enough in Him, to pour out your heart to people, so God can use you to change lives.
Now for the baby Christian, I am seeking to understand what God means for you (for me). I think this parable can come as a warning that we cannot just keep our identity that we had with God when we were younger. We have to stop being the baby Christian, we have to stop stagnant faith, and childish like thinking for Christ. I believe that God calls us to get bold, to take risks, and to experience persecution and fights for the faith. We must keep dwelling in boldness but we must seek God’s love with a passion. We must move; we must fight. We need to get a testimony.
In fact, though by this time you ought to be teachers, you need someone to teach you the elementary truths of God’s word all over again. You need milk, not solid food! Hebrews 5:12.
I don’t know what man in the parable you represent, but I know God wants to use you. Develop a bold relationship with Him. Seek Him in the morning and at night- He will bless you and He will give you a testimony to preach to the world.